9. Meditate: Talk/Listen to Yourself (Metaphysical Calibration)
Definition of Meditate
1: to engage in contemplation or reflection
2: to engage in mental exercise (such as concentration on one's breathing or repetition of a mantra) for the purpose of reaching a heightened level of spiritual awareness
1: to focus one's thoughts on: reflect or ponder
2: to plan or project in the mind: intend, purpose
Each of these definitions suggests an amplified internal conversation. The brain is part of the body, and all parts of the body are subconsciously working in harmony to create our consciousness. We can balance the conscious and subconscious minds if we encourage the communication between them.
Nearly everyone can create a voice in the mind that we can hear without using our ears. I have come to understand this as a window into our subconscious mind as it works behind the scenes to guide our conscious living. With this idea in mind, I began to bridge the conscious and subconscious minds by speaking back. Sometimes I use my actual voice (affirmations, chants, or mantras) and sometimes I use the inner voice itself (silent meditation). When the conversation ends, I consider the meditation complete and trust that intuition will guide my calibrations.
These conversations prompted me to investigate quantum theory, hypnosis and autohypnosis, religious texts and prayers, and cultural philosophies—all to discover simply that I was finding everything I ever searched for in places I would never have thought to look. I often burst into laughter at seeing my intuitions mirrored in the words of others. I felt a connection with the person who wrote them, and we could laugh together, knowing that no one is ever alone. That we’re all here, and it’s always right now.
When we tune into ourselves, our illusions begin to slip away. In time I began to question deeply-planted fallacies by listening to the inner child, the inner adolescent, the inner adult, and the inner elder. Each of them continued to suggest that I learn to unlearn. I now live under their guidance towards embracing and letting go of each idea of inequality, gradually seeing the “you” in “me” and the “me” in “you” every single day.
Whatever “isms” have crept into our nature are reflected by the sentiments of those around us. Yet they are still ours to adopt or discard. Whatever serious problems we may see in our own life, in the lives of others, or with the planet are merely a single perspective in a world that holds limitless ways to perceive. And to seek the perfection of the circumstances that allow our universe to continue creating this earth is one way to find the flaws in our own ideas of life and the nature of it all. When I remember that I am amazingly flawed and irrational, while also being incredibly talented and intelligent, I laugh with my whole being. In our own ways, we all make our mistakes. We all stumble over ourselves sometimes. We are all perfectly imperfect! For how could limitless perfection ever be contained in a single word, let alone a gender or a life form? How can we ever understand ideas of being omnipresent, omnipotent, or omniscient in our subjective existence?
The ideas that keep flowing through me are that we’re all connected to each other and to this earth as particles of life inhabiting one living universe. That there may be more that we’re connected to as life expands and contracts in unfathomable ways. That the “us” in the present depends on the “us” of the past, just as the “us” of the future depends on “us” now. That we’re all equally alive in this world together, unmistakably bound for death, and like it or not, we were never in control.
So, I put it all down. I live my life one breath at a time like everything else. I do my best to breathe with the planet as part of it all, feeling the pulse of the cosmos as I dance in the ways of a human being.